Suicide Awareness Month

As suicide awareness month comes to an end, I've wanted to speak on it but wasn't sure on what to say. Personally, dealing with this past year I've uncovered a lot of different emotions I've never confronted before...

Before I go any further, no I personally am not suicidal or ever would consider harming myself. I don't have the guts to do anything of that nature. Though, I would be lying if I said I haven't felt/ deal with dark thoughts that would might be considered a form of it.

People I've talked to who tell me they never would've thought I deal with what I deal with because I'm always joking or laughing. Hearing that has always reminded me of Robin Williams. One of the funniest comedians was constantly making people laugh while going through something so difficult and nobody knew it. Lately it's been really exhausting for me just trying to feel/ care for things. Not much excites me in life, and it's going to take some time for me to become who I want to be.

Looking at ETERNAL, what I portray on my clothes at glance may have a dark meaning but there will always be another way to look at it. My thoughts and feelings won't ever be watered down, because I'm projecting the feelings so many people feel but aren't comfortable saying. Good things take time...

Thanks for reading -J